Affirmation Generation: The Lies of Transgender Medicine

New Ground-Breaking Documentary Film, And Reflection On Participation

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Hello friends, as many of you know, the long-awaited documentary film Affirmation Generation: The Lies of Transgender Medicine, was officially released for FREE, on Vimeo. Watch The Trailer on Youtube.

This documentary was produced and financed by Vera Linder, a producer and mother-advocate in the gender-craze, and released by Panacol Productions. Learn more on the Affirmation Generation Website.

This documentary is dear to my heart for several reasons, and not only because I am featured as 1 of 6 public de-transitioners speaking out about medical harm. This film features beautiful and amazing men and women vulnerably sharing their darkest life experiences, leading experts in the gender exploratory world, and is packed full of reliable data, studies, statistics, and facts to accompany personal testimonials. It is the most thorough and truth-exposing piece of media on this subject, and I’m eternally honored to be part of it.

In full disclosure, this film is hard for me to watch. It features self-portraits taken during some of my most confused and suicidal times before and after the medical process of testosterone and having a double mastectomy, when I was only 20 years old. Although I speak often on these topics, the wounds remain. The scars remain. My chest is permanently disfigured. As an artist, I seek to beautify all that I can, and my own natural divine feminine body will never be beautiful as it once was. These portraits are raw, depressing, and trigger grief in me. Sharing them publicly, I consider a moral responsibility, and even a privilege that my younger self never dreamed of obtaining, but it still hurts, deeply.

Early on in my de-transition, when I was 22, a kind friend asked me a rhetorical question when I was deliberating on if I should try to be public about my de-transition, as I was seeing a few others doing. She said, “would you rather be known for your art, or your trauma? Because if you speak out, that is what you will be known for. For your medical trauma. That is what people will be more likely to find when they Google your name.” In full Funk God regalia I replied, “Both. I would want to be known for both. Both my trauma, and my creative work are part of my life. I don’t want to deny either, and it’s important to share my story to raise awareness for others.”

Gratefully, this documentary allows my ambition be realized, as the producers appreciated both my personal trauma narrative, AND my artistic creations. What I am most proud of in this film, besides that all my friends and mentors were able to come together to blow the whistle on medical and mental health care harm, is that one of my song’s Mad Planet, is featured, along with clips from its music video “Archiving Positive Disintegration.” During this sequence of the film, examples of social media trends influencing vulnerable youth with social contagion flash as my high-intensity funky house song plays, with vocal samples from a podcast I did about “intellectual overexcitability”, aka, me talking in a meta fashion about how sensitive and intense people go on the internet to release energy, and how “I need to get the chaos out some way”, of course, through the fast-paced bongo rhythm and club beats of the song.

In a brilliant move, the producers paired this ode to the overstimulated with clips of young people online seeking meaning through abstract gender identity exploration and labels. Perhaps my favorite part is when I say “that’s supposed to be a symptom of autism” as the song enters a bridge into an even more up-tempo and chaotic breakdown. Behind the clips are images from my music video, showing my identity evolution amidst psychedelic undulating photo manipulations. This is what I am most honored for in the film, that my extremely personal and self-referential niche art, music, and humor, will forever live on within a groundbreaking piece of investigative film.

My wounded younger self would be proud so know that someone cares not only for her story, but also her idiosyncratic and dry-witted copings with the trauma and grief. Not only will my inner child’s cries be seen and heard by thousands, but also her quirky silliness and bemused voice of reason from the void of noise. While I make intentional efforts to stoke these traits abundantly in contemporary post-trans, post-woke, post-survival state, post-unhealed times, the pain is still, frustratingly, one of my muses. I am still healing, processing, grieving, and avenging my lost years of ignorance and fear.

Yet… I do have friends, mentors, allies, supporters, and self-acceptance. I do have purpose, paths, joy, spirituality, and meaning. My goal with Affirmation Generation is to promote all of these, along with their shadows, to as many open-minds as possible, for me, my inner child, my fellow de-transitioners, friends, and family. For the sake of truth itself, and the spirit of love and goodness, I will continue promoting these experiences, facts, and resources through this film, and other opportunities to come.

Please watch this, and share with all open-hearted people in your life. You can also directly support my voice and work by sharing my music, and art, and shopping for funky goods in my new Etsy shop, including my De-trans Awareness collection.

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