Thank you for everything you share!!! You speak resilience and truth into the painful, often precarious and always terrifyingly heterodox experience of detransition. I am so grateful for your documentation of your experience. It is helping me greatly in the process of detransitioning.
My body is altered due to tattoos and testosterone. I easily would have had a masectomy if I had insurance. Many of my tattoos are scar coverups that were also ways I was trying to change my psychological compulsions by changing my physical body when psychology, medicine and psychiatry failed me. I hope my tattoos unwind from their intent eventually, but I cannot imagine how much harder that process is with surgical changes.
I am so grateful that I detransitioned last year, and I am beginning to interact with my life and my actual needs, trauma and health through community, beyond pain and dependence on "authorities of transgender health," into tangible interactions in my support network—material, intellectual and emotional support. It is still raw and painful to collide with real life and my limits, but they are real and I can feed myself better, be on better medications, treat my health conditions by non-ideologically driven means, when I know the actual condition of my body.
I was struck by your statement there were "problems around being gender conforming since early childhood." I had my formative years in the 60's and 70's, and I had hoped that by now the children who are outside the "norm" would be able to walk their own paths without the pressure to conform. I see Laura, not her wounds. I see her beautiful art and I read her words that are shaped to protect others from those who would do damage.
Thank you for everything you share!!! You speak resilience and truth into the painful, often precarious and always terrifyingly heterodox experience of detransition. I am so grateful for your documentation of your experience. It is helping me greatly in the process of detransitioning.
My body is altered due to tattoos and testosterone. I easily would have had a masectomy if I had insurance. Many of my tattoos are scar coverups that were also ways I was trying to change my psychological compulsions by changing my physical body when psychology, medicine and psychiatry failed me. I hope my tattoos unwind from their intent eventually, but I cannot imagine how much harder that process is with surgical changes.
I am so grateful that I detransitioned last year, and I am beginning to interact with my life and my actual needs, trauma and health through community, beyond pain and dependence on "authorities of transgender health," into tangible interactions in my support network—material, intellectual and emotional support. It is still raw and painful to collide with real life and my limits, but they are real and I can feed myself better, be on better medications, treat my health conditions by non-ideologically driven means, when I know the actual condition of my body.
So so so sorry for the long comment!!!
I was struck by your statement there were "problems around being gender conforming since early childhood." I had my formative years in the 60's and 70's, and I had hoped that by now the children who are outside the "norm" would be able to walk their own paths without the pressure to conform. I see Laura, not her wounds. I see her beautiful art and I read her words that are shaped to protect others from those who would do damage.